Welcome to this weeks Musings!
How To Deal With a Muddle?
For one reason or another this has been a difficult week. Time spent modelling has been at a premium as has been the opportunity to type up any thoughts I’ve had, until now that is. No single cause has been responsible for this, more a case of little things constantly coming along to disrupt any plans I might have had. More like the drip, drip of water torture. Uncertain as do the best way of dealing with things I decided to update my various lists in the hope some sense of perspective would lead to an orderly desk and an orderly mind. Invariably I have tended to find that once I have gained some control things don’t look quite so bad.
The “To Do List”, if I ignore likely neglected models, isn’t looking to bad with 35 items on it. An evenings work for Azazel but not for me. More like several weeks, longer if things continue as they are for now (excluding going on holiday in just over a weeks time). All in all not as onerous as I’d thought, particularly as my desk has been tidied too.
Then I got to thinking!
This is a hobby not a job and the time constraints are self-imposed. I can always grant myself permission to be late if I need to so why on occasions do I feel a sense of pressure to complete something? Is it the need to have something to blog about and have I become a slave to my own desire to publish twice a week on the same days and at the same times for fear of failing my own self imposed publication times? Has my hobby become an obsession leading to an addiction where I cannot survive without it? Above all how has tidying my bloody desk and updating my lists got me even thinking about such things in the first place?
It’s of concern but am I the only one who experiences such feelings and compulsions? If I am then I’m beginning to think I might need psychiatric care!
“Wish Lists”, the Pros and Cons
The “To Do List” as previously mentioned isn’t looking to bad, the “Wish List” on the other hand is a concern. Why, because unless I’m the only one that works and thinks this way, the wish list contains many of the things that I want to do now. This in itself is a rather bazaar statement because the things on my “To Do List” were the things that were once on my “Wish List”.
Now as some of you are already aware that I am a list person, something I have mentioned on numerous occasions although I don’t have a list of the posts in which I have mentioned this (a list to do perhaps?). Whilst I’m sure we are not all lists people I do feel certain that we all have a “Wish List”, one that’s either written down or in our heads. The thing is I’m not sure now how good it is to have one.
Let’s deal with the positives first.
By maintaining a wish list I am ready and armed with ideas to give people for birthdays and Christmas presents (presumptuous I know). I also eliminate the risk of forgetting something I have seen and would like to have if I write it down (I only need to remember where I put the list!). It also serves as an ongoing ideas bank and prevents me from hitting the “what can I do now?” wall. By having the list I can also think ahead as to how I might compose any given figure/model in a diorama or vignette by pre-planning and problem solving in advance. Something I regularly do when walking Buddy the dog.
Now to the downside.
The idea of buying things when you see them, just in case they cease being available, has become my latest mantra. The result of this approach is “Wish List” items get bought earlier than planned, arrive earlier than planned and invariably get done earlier than planned. As a direct result, previous items which were once on the “Wish List” that had been purchased and were on the “To Do List” move lower down the “to do” pecking order. The knock on effect of that is things that were once on the “Wish List” that were added to the “To Do List” only to later be relegated even further in the pecking order inevitably end up in the “Neglected and Forgotten Pile”. Still with me?
I feel certain this is a dilemma we all share. Why do I feel certain? Well because if this wasn’t the case then none of us would be up for Azazel’s “Neglected Model” Monthly Challenges.
Is there a way around this?
Of course if I didn’t look in the first place then it wouldn’t be a problem at all. The trouble is that right now I am on what for me is a creative role and it kind of makes sense to go with it in case it dries up. Well that’s how I’ve convinced myself anyway. Not buying the figures when you see them is also a risk I’m not willing to take, such indecision has cost me in the past. Patience is a virtue but this is a hobby not a job and therefore doing what you want to do next because it brings you pleasure overrides doing things in the order of purchase. Not maintaining a “Wish List” risks forgetting things I’ve seen and removes the fun of browsing and researching for ideas, a key component of the hobby as far as I am concerned.
So what is to be done?
In conclusion, I’ve decide to do nothing. I shall just live with it and, whenever possible, seek to reduce the “Neglected and Forgotten” pile thanks to Azazel’s monthly challenges.
Until next time.